My Bullying Story

Hello citizens of the world!

So, a sad topic today. Bullying. And why is this sad? Because 1/3 people who are bullied commit suicide. 87% of them are female. And I am a girl.

My story is complicated and hard to understand, so PLEASE try and figure out what I'm about to tell you.

MY TIMELINE:

1 year old - alls well and enjoying life
2 years old - mischievous and scheming endlessly.
3 years old - start nursery and I <3 it      (kindergarten)
4 years old - second year of nursery and my first bully comes along
5 years old - first attempt of suicide by hanging
6 years old - feeling miserable
7 years old - second attempt at suicide by hanging
8 years old - feeling even more miserable, most of my class hate me
9 years old - teachers start hating me too
10 years old - people start physically bullying me
11 years old - daily bullying
12 years old - leave primary, start self harming. Dad was taken to court by a bully, decided I was too dangerous and I was loopy, so I was admitted to an asylum (more or less, it was the psycho ward and they call it 'the Asylum.')
13 years old - got out of the asylum and then become more and more aggressive, developed anger management issues

So, at 12 years old. Yes. Okay. So one day the girl who bullied me since I was 4 came over to my dad. She then asked him, (and I quote) 'Mr Porter, can you please tell Chloe to stay away from me and my pals cos no-one likes her?' (But it sounded like this: 'Kin yoo please tell Cchloe to stie awi fay me and ma pals cos nea-wan likes er?') What she SHOULD have said was, 'Can you tell Chloe to stay away from everybody who likes me, but they don't really, I bullied them into liking me, and I'm afraid people might like Chloe if she manages to become close enough to them?'

I was more strong willed than my class mates because I was the only one to refuse to be in her group of 'friends'.

So my dad said, 'No, _____ I will not tell Chloe, because you are just a wee bully!' (My dad is quite a big guy and she has NEVER been told off by anyone!)

She then walked passed him and cursed at us. She then walked down (at which point my dad and I were a good 20 steps away from her.) She said 'I'm gonna get big ____ to you!!!' (We then found out, it wasn't big MUSCLE, it was big WAISTLINE!) Then, one night in November, police came chapping at the door and charged my dad for kicking this girl.

But after a loooooong wait, he was found not guilty. The girl also received a restraining order. I was scared out my mind, but this girl could mess with me but NO ONE messes my family without receiving consequence. However, I am not a fighter. But I try.

What has she done to my family ---

-> Kicked my brother (younger by 2 YEARS) where the sun doesn't shine. I told him to run in the other direction whilst I stepped in front of him and received a long beating.

-> Swore at my 76 year old gran, my mum, my dad... EVERYONE!

-> Caused harm to me.

-> Took my dad to court

And this hurts. But I know that I will ALWAYS put myself in danger before my family... And trust me. ANYONE who messes with my family now gets a royal beating. I am not the same as I was back then. I have MADE myself a fighter. And I personally tear hair, bite, scratch ANYONE who messes with ANYONE in my family.

This was my story. You are the reader. I still self harm. But I get through each day one by one. So I expect you to do the same. Do it. For everyone who loves you. Even if it seems no-one does. There'll always be 1 person who loves and cares about you. If you can't find one, your stupid. Because I'm the one who cares.

If you have trouble with bullying, are under the age of 18 and live in the UK, please call childline on 0800 1111 or go to their website, www.childline.com


If anything gets serious, contact your GP. Mental illness can be developed through bullying and it is serious. Trust me you do NOT want to be in an Asylum, barely aloud out of your room.

I care.


With Love,
Chloe x

If you were affected by my story and have a question, please contact me. I'll answer.